Dreams to be fulfilled

Untitled

2008-11-01T13:39:00.005+08:00

I'm really tired.
And I'm not talking about physical nor mental fatigue.
Too...Exhausted...
I'm going for a long long extremely long holiday before I get myself trapped again.

If only life was a video game...

I'd buy some guns and maybe a chainsaw too.
Then I'd go around slaughtering everyone in the world,
with authorities right on my tail.
Then I'd strap myself on with some explosives,
and blow myself up alongside the authorities.

Once I'm done,
I'd delete my character and create a new account.

If only life was a video game.

-IsWan

Untitled

2008-10-29T22:21:00.003+08:00

The mistakes of the past...
haunts the present.
The mistakes of the present...
haunts the future.
The mistakes of the future...
haunts it all.

This feeling is overwhelming

Ouh i forgot to say...
I'm a fucking dumbass.
Thank you

-IsWan

Untitled

2008-10-28T20:14:00.003+08:00

Its Game Over

-IsWan

Untitled

2008-10-09T01:07:00.004+08:00

Everything feels so pathetic this year.
Sometimes i really do wish...
that i had never existed in the first place.

Some say,
be honoured to have been chosen to
admire the beauty of the world.

I say,
to not have known the beauty,
is to not have known the beast.

-IsWan

Untitled

2008-07-26T18:30:00.000+08:00

When it comes to programming,
Google is my saviour.

-IsWan

Untitled

2008-07-17T23:20:00.002+08:00

Dated July 17 2008,

History repeats itself

Untitled once again

2008-07-14T23:11:00.004+08:00

I'm pissed.
Damn ffffing pissed.

I hate maids.
They interrupt my privacy.
They disrupt my space.
They interrupt my routine.
All in all, they interrupt my life.

I preferred my few weeks of life without a maid.
Doesn't matter if i had to do the household chores.
At least i got my privacy.
I could do my standard routine with ease.

You know what else...
I try and try and try and try
Try to be the best i can
I try to be the best internally, externally and mentally.

No matter how packed my schedule is,
I make time to make myself better.

Sumhow,
I feel it's all not making much progress.
Maybe because I'm trying to be good in everything.
Which is barely possible.

Or,
I'm just never satisfied with the progress I'm making.
Maybe that's why it feels so futile...So useless and hopeless.

In the end,
it's just my pessimism isn't it?
Time and again,
it's just pessimism in process.

On a brighter note,
My life isn't that bad afterall.
I can always depend on moongkok,
to brighten up each day.

Written with sincere truth,
-IsWan

Untitled

2008-07-10T00:01:00.005+08:00

Dim strComplaint As String
Dim strComplaint1 As String
Dim intRowOfComplaint As Integer = 0
Dim intRowOfComplain1 As Integer = 0

strComplaint = "I hate losing"
strComplaint1 = "Do surface...Talent o' mine"

For intRowOfComplaint = 0 To 4
lblMessage.Text &= strComplaint & vbCrLf
If intRowOfComplaint >= 4 Then
For intRowOfCompaint1 = 0 To 4
lblMessage.Text &= strComplaint1 & vbCrLf
Next
End If
Next

---------------------------------------------------------------

Output:

I hate losing
I hate losing
I hate losing
I hate losing
Do surface...Talent o' mine
Do surface...Talent o' mine
Do surface...Talent o' mine
Do surface...Talent o' mine

Untitled

2008-06-27T13:25:00.000+08:00

Yesterday...

A great day that felt like a dream.

Or maybe i was just too sleepy..hahaha!

-IsWan

Untitled

2008-06-19T13:11:00.000+08:00

I guess it's true...

I'm as sensitive as a mercury thermometer

No matter how hard I try,
I just end up being the same old same old me-yo.

It's just the way it is,
Live with it or Leave it.

-IsWan

Untitled

2008-05-27T18:01:00.000+08:00

Lyrics I created for my GEMs presentation.
Thought that its pretty nice and decided to publish it...

Here it is:

Verse 1:

In this darkness I stand all alone
Left with what I’ve started…Everything’s gone
I’ve gone so far yet just to lose it all
Bring me back…All the things I have lost

Verse 2:

I should have taken your place on that day
This guilt and sorrow that keeps haunting me now
I wish I know that you knew how I feel
This abyss that I undergo by my own

Chorus:

Sometimes…I stop…Ponder ‘bout the things we shared
Let me change the fates of time
Fact is…You’re gone...Emptiness fills this life
But your memories remain…
Within...

Verse 3:

Someone save me from this endless maze
This maze of misery that loops forever
What seems close just ends up ouh too far
Let me be…Just let me end this life

Untitled

2008-05-16T01:08:00.000+08:00

Im happy
Im sad

Im contented
Im disappointed

I wish for more
I wish for less

I wish to be there
I wish to be here

I know
I dont know

We know
We dont know

This is stupid
Another one of those days i felt i needed to share...But i dont
Another one of those days i felt i needed to shout to the world..."****!" for no particular reason...But i dont
Another one of those days i felt i wanted to say "* **** ***"...But i dont

Sometimes i feel i control it too much
Sometimes i feel i should let it go
Sometimes i feel i should just say it
But in the end...i dont...cuz its not time yet

It feels stupid
I get jealous...observing other people
I get irritated...observing other people

One is just a number before two.
But why does it feel like its so far away?

This is meaningless
I dunt know...

I know yet i dont.
I dont cuz i dont wanna tell the whole world
I want cuz i wanna tell the world.

What the hell am i saying?
I have no idea...but again..I do.
But its pointless...
I have no reason to feel this way...yet i do

I dont know...

Just that..
Im happy
Im sad

such a relieve...

2008-01-17T15:28:00.000+08:00

ahhhh......

finally the load is finally off me...
what ive been keeping for months now is finally off me..
or at least...it isnt kept any longer...

im glad things turned out the way it did...
and im damn happy to knw how it is on the other side as well...
well..i guess its back to revision

let my actions do the talking

guilt

2008-01-08T22:55:00.000+08:00

guilt...

i can't believe i got jealous due to the most harmless situations...

i feel stupid...that i upset u thru my pathetic whining..

from this day onwards...i swear to God and to the world online...
that i'll do my very best from letting my emotions get the best of me..

wheew! today must be the greatest day of my life! or one of the greatest day...hahaha

Haiz...

2007-12-29T13:42:00.000+08:00

This has gotten to a rather irritating stage...

I can't freaking sleep like...15mins after i lie down or summin.
Instead...it takes me approximately 1hr of lying down each night b4 i get my sleep.

It's damn irritating...i swear.
All the thoughts, worries, hopes and dreams which plays over and over again in my head...
Every single night...
Though it may be nice to think about and all....but its affecting my sleep.

It's like...a habit for me to keep thinking of the same thing when i lie down b4 sleep.
I tried to think as little as possible and tried to stay as calm as possible...but i still can't sleep.
Maybe i need some sleeping pills or sumthing.

Well..still..like i said...they were nice dreams to think about.

Don't assasinate me

2007-12-28T21:08:00.000+08:00

Singapore is a land of opportunity huh?
How bout you give me some proof...

Killing people's dreams...
crushing it all...

It's not fair...
yet...there's no point saying it nor whining about it..

Maybe i should just make it as a hobby...
seeing how things are...
I'll get nowhere cept maybe performing for clubs and such.

What's the point in that?

Somebody make me change my mind.

-------------------------------------------------------

To you who know you did,
Thanks for the present!
Like...thanks x inifity ^ infinity and beyond!
Woots

Disappointing

2007-12-19T14:11:00.000+08:00

Damn...i thought it only happened in Malaysia.
Never did i realised it was happening to Singaporeans too.

Shit...i had so much respect...
since they're from some holy school or sumthing.
But now...i dunt see much of a reason to respect them any longer..
Or at least...at a high level.

Of coz...there are always good ppl...
but still...
the issue still bugs me..

Disappointing...

Untitled

2007-12-12T04:43:00.000+08:00

So finally,
there's something interesting i can type about...
other than the other issue.

I've been going to SGH for a couple of days now.
Heck...it definitely has affected my school work progress.
Why?
Cuz straight after school...I go there..
And my family goes back home usually after midnight.
Leaving me tired to even start doing work.

Hu's sick?
Well...it's my grandma.
Kind of...in a critical state.

So today...was kind of interesting.
Went there as per normal and guess what...
straight after coming back from the cafeteria to have dinner...
my aunt told me to go take a look at my grandma later.
She also added..."Nenek dh tkder harapan lagi".
Which means...she doesn't have any chance of survival.
Ouh...and it was also accompanied by tears. Lol.

And yeah...so it came to me.
"This might be her time to go huh?"
"Ouh well...i guess it's just part of life"

Haha..couldn't i have thought of something better?
Like maybe..."OMG? She's gonna go bye-bye soon? That can't be!"
Or summin lidat.

Well...on the way to the ICA...
my uncles and aunts were all there.
The environment there...
was simply saddening.
They were all deeply saddened...and some cried. Yeah..even the guys. Yeah sure..it's normal..don't worry.

Obviously, i felt sad as well...
but there was nothing i could do.
I couldn't cry either cuz i found no reason to.
So i just waited for my turn to enter the ICA...
To take a look at my beloved grandma.

Waited and waited...
waited for the sky to drop? Haha.
Nah..i love waiting..rmbr?

My cuzzins kinda got a chance to enter ferst.
It's funny how that room creates a certain effect on people.
It's like...
U enter...
partially saddened...
and u end up getting terribly sad and tears flowing down ur cheeks as you exit.

I was eager to see what was happening inside.
So i was kept waiting and waiting...
(Ouh heck...let me skip the details)

So i entered,
cleansed my hands, wore my gloves, and the mask thingy.
As i approached my grandma...
it was saddening.

Seeing her suffering like that...
i can even see her tears.
Her eyes were wet...
yet the only thing i could do was comfort her and sympathize.
I didn't even know what to say...
Well...i did say something...but i can't exactly remember what.

(Skipping details)

She had to go for an operation.
50% chance of success.
Well, grandma's children took their chances.
And i kinda thought...
"Okay...no more hope my ass lah!"

Tho...
the environment there...they really thought she was gonna die.
And its funny to see people cry and all.
Cuz it makes u feel like joining the 'Crying Club' too...
But still...like i said..i found no reason to cry.

I kinda had evil thoughts too.
I'm not gonna say anything about it tho...HAHA.

(Skipping details)

Waited at the operation waiting room thingy.
Well...the atmosphere lightened up.
People were all going crazy and happy and all.
Probably trying to hide their sorrow.

(Skipping details)

Operation was a success.
And she was then sent to ICU.

(Skipping details)

Waited and waited.
Waited to be able to see her in the ICU.
So i went in...
and there she was...soundly asleep.
Yet...still looking quite miserable.
Straight after that...my family went off...leaving my mom there to overnight there at SGH.
Was probably around...3am++.

(Skipping details)

Kinda reached home ard 4.30am...
God..that sucks. And i have class at 9am.
Wheew!
So here i am...wasting time before i can get washed up.
(Btw...i havent bathe for like...20hrs already..Damn..i stink as bad as shit.)

8 words

2007-12-02T20:01:00.000+08:00

Those 8 words you said on MSN that morning/night.

Has been deeply embedded into my soul.

Dammit

2007-11-26T19:48:00.000+08:00

Arrggghh!!

I can't believe im losing it again.
I lost control...and it was worst than before.

I can't believe it,
just when i thought everything was going smoothly.
And unexpectedly,
it happened today.

Yeah...divert it to the manual.
I think that's what everyone thought the problem was.
But it wasn't.
It was the same old thing...
just like before.

I dunt know what to do anymore.
If you (to whom im referring to) happens to be reading this.
Then understand,
that i have no idea how much longer i can take this nonsense.

But either way...
i will bring the flames down.
Hopefully...it gets under control once more.

But i still dont know what to do abt it.

Time's up

2007-11-19T00:56:00.000+08:00

Well then,
i guess the time is up.

I've learnt as much things as i could in these few days.
Just hope that i could put these words and thoughts into actions...
And hopefully i can think this way for as long as i live.
So that nothing bad ever happens again.

Well i guess we just have to wait and see,
to how i react to every difficult situation that i get into.

Satisfactory?

Yeah..i guess it is.

Determined

2007-11-15T22:55:00.000+08:00

Determination is a great thing...
it really is.
I have finally chosen a side...
and nothing is gonna get in my way.

I have 3 more days...
to change for the better.
For myself...for us...
and for everyone else related to me.

This is..the time!

Beauty

2007-11-04T21:17:00.000+08:00

So...

I guess I'm not what I used to be.

Everything changes.
For the better i suppose.
But then again...it feels good to be a lil havoc at times.

If i had a choice...i'd go back to what i used to be..
but then again...i already did..
putting me at this position.

But then again...

I'm Loving It!

Surprising...

2007-10-27T10:24:00.000+08:00

For the past 2 mths or so...

I've been dreaming about the same thing over and over again...tho, in different situations.
And it happens to be her...

It's either i'm too obsessed...
Or i really want it to happen...

Whatever it is...
I just hope it doesn't end.

Woah...

2007-10-23T22:14:00.000+08:00

All this time...

All this Time...

All this TIME!!!

Never realised up till now...

At that moment..

I was like..."OMG! Woah! Woah! OMG!"

Inevitable

2007-10-17T19:59:00.001+08:00

Jealousy is inevitable.

Though it must be contained,
it bursts out anyway.
You don't try to put it down,
it converts into anger.

But the cool thing is,
it comes easily.
Thus,
making it easy to go away too.

All i need is....haha..u dunt need to know

Again...

2007-10-09T15:20:00.000+08:00

Sometimes...

I don't know why i even bother.
For a greater cause?
Maybe for a cause that isn't so great after all.
I don't know...you tell me.

What's the problem with me?
Hah...I can't exactly tell you why in this publicly accessed blog.
But let's just say, even the littlest things affect me.
Yes...even the tiny ones.

You can't totally blame me.
I have eyes that wander and a heart that aches.
Funny it may be
but i brought it upon myself.

Maybe i'm just sick of these J needles poking here and there
without even wounding me.
But then again, if it didn't exist.
There wouldn't be a cause to begin with.

I'm letting small details affect me.
and i don't know why.

Bad Day

2007-09-25T21:54:00.000+08:00

Damn...

wished today never happened...

i dunno what to type down..

it's all so jumbled up.

what i defeated...

what i thought which can be easily defeated..

was not a fact...

for some reason...

damn...

i cant believe it...

it was a thing in the past...

ive gotten so used to things like these...

but for some reason...

today was like the past...

just like in sec1 & 2.

where i was as shy as a fly...(wait..a fly is shy?)

damn....

it took me alot of confidence to start attempting...

a hell lot...

and it just drains much more...

when the execution of the plan went haywire...

but when its a triple combo...

it just brings it down from at first..100% confidence...

to -25% confidence...

i felt like a fucking retard...

damn...

the remaining of the day....

spent time in deep thoughts...

u know..the WHYs...

humiliation...

i cant take it when issues like these are concerned

damn...

the rest of the day...

was like life in sec 1...

when i cant even look at em in the eye...

when i cldnt even present my ideas...my experience...confidently...

it all just came back to me...

damn...

that brought me down...

WHY?!

WHY DID U HAVE TO FUCKING COME BACK?!

YOU'RE DESPISED!!!

WHY THE HELL WON'T YOU FUCK OFF??!!

damn...

come to think of it again...

everyone has their own ultimate weakness....

and i suppose this is mine...

a part of me which will never go away...........

Untitled

2007-08-22T00:06:00.000+08:00

Constellations of million of stars,
twinkling in the dark blank space.
As the image enter your eyes,
it makes the night more worthwhile.

Gazing from below,
admiring the beauty.
You start to wonder,
which you like most.

You start to search,
you begin to scan.
But it all looks the same,
nothing unique nothing special.

Halt!

You found it!
Its bright like the northern star,
it sparkles like a diamond.
You tell your friends,
you tell your family.

But they all seem disagreeable,
like the monkeys from Konga-eable(that doesn't link..haha).

"No thats nice!"
"No thats nicer!"
*pak!*"You freaking blind or something? That one over there's nicer!"
"MOMMY!! HE BEAT ME!"

They seem to have different likings,
they seem to have different eyes.

Maybe he likes that,
maybe they like this.
But they're not gonna influence me,
cuz i am who I am.

With my eyes,
with my telescope(ofcourse).
The star mesmerizes me,
over and over again.

--------------------------------------------

Okay...i have no freaking idea why my format isn't proper.
Hu gives a damn..it isnt a poem or anything
Treat it like a story.

-IsWan

Untitled

2007-08-16T17:22:00.000+08:00

As i run,
it feels like an endless road.
A road,
which was meant to have an end.
But it never feels like it,
cuz you're running with no intelligence on where u are.

As you guess and you feel,
where the hell you might be.
The possibility just loops,
and it never ends.

But sometimes it feels,
like you know its the wrong road.
You try to peek,
you try to figure out.
But you know what'll happen,
if you just do so.

You wish you were right,
you wish you were wrong.
You wish it was true,
while wishing it was false.

Ah fuck,
i dunno what else to say.

-IsWan

Blindfolded

2007-08-12T12:05:00.000+08:00

Took part in a marathon,
blindfolded, that's the rule of the game.
Perseverance & Tolerance,
it helps me through this shit.

With each step I make,
the tougher it gets.
But how tough can it be?
You're blindfolded with no sense of direction.

I might be wasting my life,
for all I know.
Cuz nobody tells you,
if you're out of course.

My progress,
is all I need to know.
To bring up hope,
or to end it all.

Tolerance doesn't last forever,
it never did.
Perseverance will die down soon,
like a lighted candle in an enclosed room.

I wanna end this suffering,
but the prize is too great.
Should I keep running,
or should I give up and die?

-Johnny K.

Untitled

2007-08-03T00:28:00.000+08:00

I THINK THE WORLD IS STUPID

HOWEVER,

WHAT I THINK IS NOT SIGNIFICANT.

AH...WHO CARES?

THE WORLD NEVER DID CARE..

Untitled

2007-06-04T22:26:00.001+08:00

Things have happened.
Things have passed.
Things that can never be corrected,
Nor be regretted.

I am what I am.
You are what you are.
I am what I am.
Thus, i'll be what i'll be.

Selfish i am.
Proud, i may be.
For Johnny, i am.
Sacrifices, shall not be.

To move on, you must.
To dwell, you shall not.
Be strong, you must.
Continue, i will not. (hehe)

-IsWan(Johnny)

2007-04-29T22:06:00.000+08:00

Theres one thing i like about blogging once in awhile.
Tat is...u have lotsa things to type abt.

Hmm...events are jumbled.
So ill just say it in random order.

There was one time when i was in a packed train on the way to school.
Theres this ah beng guy standing in front of me. And his butt was right in front of my right hand.
Thus, every single time i try to do summin with my right hand. Such as checking the time and so on.
I would touch his butt.
He turned to me when i accidentally touched his butt for the 2nd time.
And he had that..."Are you gay?" kinda look.
Haha...
Then it happened again. And he stared at me.
And i was like..."Ouh sorry."
Haha..sad..for your info.
IM NOT GAY!

Hmm...
then we had FOR on the SAT.
Like ystd.
Was kinda fun i guess.
Didnt eat much tho.
Cuz the cooking rate was slow.
And the competition to get bbq-ed food was tight.
Overall...fun..i think.

Hmm...
i got to know that she didnt go "madrasah" cuz she was sick.
Was kinda worried..but luckily its just some dumb fever.
I wonder how she's gonna cope wit tmr's eng paper.
Well,
all i can say is: "All the best to u!"

Im lazy to type anymore.
Have to study for some dumb quiz.

Till then

-IsWan

Untitled

2007-04-24T17:27:00.000+08:00

Hey,
My name is Iswan.
Did u know that? or are just pretending to not know?

Well..anyway.
Monday.
Was kinda cool.
Had guitar club auditions.
And i said i didn't know how to play the guit...at least the basic.
LOL!
Sad...i probably wld have answered better and had a higher chance in getting into the club if i had said that i could play and showed what i knew.
Ouh well..whats done is done. Theres nothing we can do, right? or left? Lol

Then after that...me aziz and zak had a long talk about stuff.
The normal issues arh.
They are great people.
Think we talked till after 9.

Well, then i got home...
turned on the lappy...
actually intending to revise..
but i ended up chatting with her.
Couldn't help it.

Then i blew my top.
Then i had no mood to do anything
And i slept.
Sad.

Today

Well,
had a few reshuffling of module timing arh.
I can now go for Friday Prayers without missing anything.
Cool huh?

Hmm...
I think im in trouble.
I can't seem to pay attention in class now.
It gets tougher.
Cuz theres like the lappy in front of me.
Obviously ill start playing games.
But dunt worry arh...
I still do pay attention for the impt parts...i guess

One of my granduncle passed away today.
That's sad.
Usually when my relatives die,
I dun't seem to symphatise.
I know i should...but i just can't.
Maybe they're just distant.

Due to this issue,
I started thinking.
If my grandma or grandpa were to die.
Would i care?
Would i cry?
or
Would i be what im doing right now...not to care?
Well...certainly...i wouldnt want to face that..but i know i have to.
So let's just see what happens to me when that happens.

I was wondering as well.
What would happen if i died?
My family would definitely be sad.
But would my cuzzins and close frends be as sad as well?
Would they not care about my death like how i don't about my great uncle's?
Funny thing...i feel as tho they won't
Ouh well.

We all die one day.
It doesn't matter now.

At least my day is gonna end with a happy note.
Today is the day i call her.
Hopefully this time she'll talk more.
Are u gonna talk more, dear?
HAHA!
Ouh well.

Farewell people.

-IsWan

Untitled

2007-04-21T21:20:00.000+08:00

Hey.

Its been a long time since i posted anything, isnt it?
I bet i missed reading what i posted.

Well,
A lot of things have happened.
First, there was MIT camp.
That was freaking COOL!
And the night walk was great.
As well as the disco night on the last night. Even though i could hardly relate to rnb and techno.
And my fav phrase for the camp: HUMP ARH!
I miss my EcneliS-ians.
Shld be the greatest camp of all.

14th of April,
is a very special day to me and her i guess.
One of the things that i never expected would happen.
Well, she makes me a happy man or guy or boy. U decide

Hmm...
school started. Like..last mon.
Was kinda fun i guess.
Learnt lotsa stuff like programming and web publishing and others.

U know what else?
Think im getting addicted to audition once more.
Ouh well..sad isnt it?

And u know what else again?
I havent touched my guitar for more than a week now.
And that sucks.

And finally,
I hate memorising SURAHS for the madrasah exam.
This blows.

Thats it for now.
Farewell

-IsWan

Untitled

2007-04-04T16:50:00.000+08:00

I don't understand myself.

I really don't.

Or maybe...i don't wish to understand.

One thing's for sure...i know something..i analyse why it is so

But...do not do anything abt it.

Thats who they said i was like.

To live life just the way it is.

And its damn true.

Ive been living life the way it is.

Im not changing anything..im following the flow.

FUCK

There are just things i wished i could understand.

I want to...but i can't or i don't want to.

What The FUCK iswan.

I really think i fucking know who i am.

But somebody else is hiding it from me.

I composed a song...titled 'Awaken'

I didnt really think the song wld bring a deep meaning.

But somehow..THEY tried to figure it out.

Awaken the beast from within.

Thats my theme for it.

Somehow...they can relate the song to me when i couldnt.

Nemmind...ill skip that part.

Ah..whatever...

What i need to do now...is to figure myself out.

Allah..please..help me.

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2007-03-17T22:14:00.000+08:00

Hey, once again!

Sorry,
for not updating for so long. Was lazy. Very lazy. But anyway, ill be updating once in awhile.
So, dun't expect much.

Things have happened. Things have occurred. It's sad, that we can't change the things that have been done. Don't you just wish u could just turn the time and restart at the point where u wanted to go back to? But, on the other hand, would it do any good? Would it bring u the satisfaction that u desire after getting the after effect of what u wanted? I say, things happened due to fate. It wants us to be the way we are right now.

It's unfair don't u think? That we are controlled by fate. That what we are gonna be and what we are now and when we're gonna die is fated. Hah..the world was and never will be fair.

But on the other hand, don't u think that fate is what we decide? Here's what i think about fate. And i've told others about it as well, but i decided to share. Anyway, fate. I believe fate is an effect of something that has been done. Picture it this way: You are in a crossroad. You do not know where to go. You are left with making a decision.

Whatever you encounter or happen to you during and at the end of the either of the roads, is fated. So, i believe its something we control.

Or maybe, fate could be something that we cannot control. Something that happens. Something that shocks you. Picture it this way: You are on your way to library. Suddenly, you saw your long lost friend passing by you.

There you have it. It was your fate to meet the person. But on the other hand, it may just be coincidence.

Haha! There's just things that humans can never know. Our knowledge is inferior to God.

Thats all for now.

-IsWan

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2007-03-09T01:52:00.000+08:00

Hey!

So i've gotten myself a girlfrend.
Her name is Schecter Omen.
How cool is that?
An american girlfriend.
HAHAHA!

That burnt my pocket's pants.

Anyway. I did something stupid today.
I dunno why i did tt. But i did.

So.

AHAHA! Ouh well.

Well...i got IT in SP. I wonder if i chose the right course.

Decisions.
Dont u just think that decision making is one of the toughest thing to do?
Though its summin we do every single day.

Decisions.
Destruction.
OR
Satisfaction.

Decisions Just sucks.

-IsWan

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2007-02-28T00:23:00.000+08:00

Hey!

Tmr is the day i finally get myself a girlfriend.
Since she's not like any other partners that others would have.
She's not the type that requires you to splurge your money on and im grateful for that.
HAHA!!
Basically...all i need to do is to maintain her. Simple.

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2007-02-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

WOAH!!!!!!

Take a look at the date of my last post! HAHAHA!
Its been more than a year since i last posted anything on this blog.
Guess i had no use for blogs anymore...or i just lost my interest in blogging.
I really did find blogging quite dull and stuff like that.

Why am i blogging again?
Haha! I have no idea...i have no idea.
Anyway...this blog is just intended for me to read or any other random persons. I'd rather not link anybody up. The lesser the people who visit..the better it is.

Hah...i have so many things to type about. Its been a year. Lotsa events have happened. Haha.
And..as time passes by...a person change. Haha..its true. I read thru my posts and i was like...'WTF? I posted all these shit??? How childish!" Haha..as i said..a person becomes more mature...i guess.

Hmm...talkin about maturity. Its interesting how my flow of thoughts have changed. During the past...my mind was filled with...gerls...gerls...gerls...and more gerls...and maybe a lil of guitar. Hah..well..nowadays...i tend to think more. I tend to observe. Its interesting...to observe..to analyse. Though...i dunt go too indepth as someone i noe. Haha. Maybe everyone else goes through the same thing as i do. Haha.

Okay..thats enough for maturity. Haha! Okay...i got back my results like a few weeks ago. N it was great! Only that my maths flopped. Won't say much abt it tho. Just that my L1R5 is 16 while my L1R4 is 11. Not bad huh? HEHE! Thank you ALLAH!! I may not be a good muslim..but it doesnt mean i forget about YOU. Its just that..i may not be...perfect.

Haha..its funny why i keep apologizing to god and promise to repent but never do. HAHA!! I shld really repent soon. Haiz...sad.

Hmm...and ive gotten serious in music. I wanna make it big sumday with my band. Trust me..im workin hard for it. But not now la...since im bz with work. HEHE!! May those random people out there hu reads this blog pray for me. I may put up my songs here. Or maybe not! HAHA! We shall see how it goes.

Okay..i don't wish to type too much. So, i'll just end here.

Till then!

2005-10-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

Hi guys!
Iswan is back from another episode oF!!!
The crazy ass monkey!!
In today's episode..ill be featuring a few surveys dat ppl have made! I bet u will enjoy THIS!!
And so..scroll down to look at it!! Hope it helps! hehehe...

Starting in...
5

4

3

2

1

0
GO!!!

The ferst one..

HOW TO TELL IF A GUY LIKES A GIRL:
1. The guy will try to make you laugh.
2. He'll flirt with you when he can.
3. He might try to show off around you.
4. He'll help you out, if you ask for it.
5. He'll stick up for you when you need it most.
6. He'll be friendly to you and all your friends.
7. He might call you for no good reason.
8. He might make fun of you, in a joking way.
9. He'll tell you that you did good, even if you did horrible.
10. He'll make eye contact with a happy grin on his face.

HOW TO TELL IF A GIRL LIKES A GUY:
1. The girl will laugh at all your jokes.
2. She'll stare at you with a smile on her face.
3. She'll ask you who you like, continuously.
4. She might try to make you jealous.
5. She'll beg that you do everything for her.
6. She might start talking to your friends.
7. She'll talk to you about the different varieties of guys.
8. She'll always seem to be talking about how nice you are.
9. She'll always be flirting with every other guy except you.
10. She'll always ask what to do in a bad situation.

NEXT ONE

10 steps to enjoying each other better...
1. Be realistic about each other.
2. Always talk things out.
3. Do stuff together.
4. Meet each other halfway.
5.Say the three letter word "I love U"
6. Respect each other.
7. Bury the past.
8. Sit on ur jealousy.
9. Keep ur commitments to each other.
10. Be honest.

Next one!!

Mind of the Girls:
- gossip isnt a sin. its an art.
- we arent ashamed to cry.
- we must go to the bathroom in groups
- we have this thing called feelings.* dont
hurt
them. *
- we dont wake up looking pretty. it takes
time
and
effort. **
- we need girls nights OFTEN.
- we hold grudges and we never forget
the things you say to us that hurt.
- it doesnt matter who dumped who or
why.
whenever we see an ex with another girl,
it always bothers us. not because we're not over
you, but because we know we used to be that girl.
- makeup can hide so many things, like
puffy eyes from crying to huge scars from a broken heart
- never ever ask a girl what she weighs; or
imply
anything about her weight being too
much or too
little. just don`t do it.
- never ask a girl if shes being so bitchy
cause of
PMS...cause other things annoy us...duh
- as much as we say we didnt like u that
much...we did
- girls notice every little thing so be
careful what
you say and do
- our eyes are located in our heads. not
our chest or butt. when
youre not looking in our eyes, WE KN0W.
- we get a feeling in our gut when things
are
wrong
(seriously true)
- sometimes we trust you because we
want to
even when we know you are lying, and it
hurts

Okay! End of SHow baby!!!
Hope u enjoyed It!
Special thanks to the internet and my trustry frend..Ashraf a.k.a Mr Arap

Iswan..signing off

2005-10-16T07:10:00.000+08:00

Aite...
So..here i am..after some time not updating..
Well..it doesnt matter..cuz not many wanna see..so ill juz write it when i feel like it..

Hmm...so..EXAMS r over aint it?!
AHahaa..
Veri glad i AM!
All those effort..i hope it doesnt go to waste..
I dunt wanna get retain u noe..
Like...if i get retained..i haf to re-study the whole chapter..and get the current sec2 students as my classmate..
And..most probably i'll be teased juz like HULING??
Well..if dat happens..den BYEBYE dem!!
Hmm...besides i promised my frend i wldnt retain..so I studied yarh?
Now..it's all up to god to decide my fate..
And..of coz..up to the teachers to graduate me or not!

Enough abt studies..lemme haf sum fun fer now!
Hmm...so..now, i am actually typing on a handicapped keyboard..Y?
Cuz my baby bro pulled some of the buttons off..SHEESH
And..i was shouting my head off at him..
Haiz...now i just haf to type on dat thing..i dunno wads it called..not impt fer u to know though..

So..juz now..i actually listened to my frend t0k abt her sis..
And how her parents treated her..
Her sis was like..a bitch..her parents..r owaes siding her sis..(dats wad she said)
I dunt really noe the details..but its sad if my family was like hers..
So yarh..i was kinda sorry fer her..but there's nuttin i can do cuz its her family..it aint mine..
Every family has their own problem..n oni u can solve em..

Hmm...actually..i decided to go to some shops to get myself a pair of nice shoes..
ITS TIME I GOT A BIT TRENDY..u get wad i mean?
But in the end..i became lazy..and juz stick my butt to the chair...playin the comp..
Mayb..ill juz go another day...
ANYBODY WANNA FOLLOW?
haha..rite rite..

HEY!! if u're reading my blog..TAG LA!!
THIS BLOG FEELS DEAD MAN!!!
Juz shit anything u want here...

Orite..enough of typing...
SO peeps..CYA SOME OTHER DAY!

2005-09-28T14:34:00.000+08:00

Hmm...so miss chitra went babbling summin abt...dunt write negative stuffs on blogs n so on
Wad i think?
It doesnt matter to me..cuz not many ppl know my link..rite??
Well..not everyone in the whole world will noe wad i write..rite?
But dunt worry ppl..i wunt write any shit here...
Juz shitz abt my life..dats all

Aite..let's see...
Hmm..today...i felt abit WIERD...
I dunno! I juz felt summin was not right....
Well..it doesnt matter...
Btw...my mind is all jumbled up thx to lotsa peeps...
But! i dunt care...imma not care anymore
IMMA pretend nuttin related to this eva happened...
HEH

Hmm...
Humans...humans aint bornt to be perfect...
They either haf a problem outer or inner look...
But let's just say..
If u haf a choice..wld u prefer a problem inner or outer??
I prefer an inner problem and rather l00k nice outer...
Y? simply becuz...inner problems can be changed much more easily then outer l00ks...
I dunno if u agree wit me or not..
ACTUALLY...i dunt care...
Dat's wad i think...

Hmm...
WAnna hear a stupid story dat happened to me during the EL orals??
Lets go!
See...i came out of the front door..and came walkin to the chair dat i was supposed to sit and prepare my conversation with the invigilator...
I picked up the passage and sat on the chair...
I was reading on and on..till the end of the passage..and i turned over the page...
TO my shock!
There was no picture discussion...
SO i though there was no picture discussion fer the whole oral!
And so..i kept on readin and reading..
Then when it was my turn to t0k...
I stood up...and when i was gonna put dat piece of paper containin the passage back to the chair...
TO MY HORROR...i saw the picture discussion! I was like...wad de hell!!
IM NOT PREPARED FER THIS!
Stupid thing is..i didnt realize i was sittin on it the whole time!
Oh dammit..
I came to t0k to the invigilator and had a hard time...

2005-09-25T15:00:00.000+08:00

I haf been doin a survey...
Since 10 to be exact...
I cant tell u hu it was about...
But all i can say it was is happenin and my views..

See...i see this person..as a great person
A great frend..a great companion..
A frend hu i gaf most of my trust to...
Am open wit the person
I knew this person oni this year
All i knew were just the gd points..
SO, overall...i believe...the person is great..

But suddenly..ppl start t0kin about the person's bad points
Sayin summin..like..hyprocrite..two-faced...evil...gd outside..devil inside..Step cute but not cute..
Think everyone loves the person...use ppl and then throw*get my concept?*
AND THIS STRUCK ME

Like c'mon..
I've been great frends wit this person this past few...months?
And all this shits appear?
Like wad de hell...
A person hu i trusted..lots
Said dat the person really changed...*i wanna believe dat*
BUT ppls view r the total opposite..a devil the person is..

Not dat i cannot accept this...
Its just dat...i cannot accept this
I CANNOT!
Not dat i cannot accept the person's negative points...
Its just dat i cannot accept wad ppl say of this person..
Like..WOW!
Flirty..yea i can accept..
But devil! c'mon man
Do u know wad u're makin me imagine?
Dat the person is like a terrible person..a person to stay away from

IS dis person REALLY dat terrible?
C'mon man!
IS IT?!?!?!?!?!??!

I MUST FIND OUT FER MYSELF...
AND I JUST HOPE THE PERSON WILL TELL ME THE TRUTH...

*I TRUST THIS PERSON*

2005-09-25T14:00:00.000+08:00

I am iswan...
And i haf decided..
MUAHAHAH

I haf decide to wait fer this particular gerl...
WAIT till its the perfect time!
Wait wait wait wait..
I think it wld be great to cherish this as frends ferst...
Enjoy life ferst..ahahah

Orite..cya

2005-09-23T10:18:00.000+08:00

Haiz..im writin this post now fer a special purpose...

Imma write a story here...Its abt a guy..

Orite...
See, there's this guy hu is currently in sec 3 of riverside sec..
He thought of takin a break from chasing gerls(he's a veri dumb guy..doesnt benefit him at all)
He thought of just livin life as it is..enjoy life to its fullest..no other thoughts..study and enjoy..dats all..
NO CHASIN

So..he did as he planned and wanted to make more frends..
So this guy asked from his frend some more contacts of his classes...
He became frendly to most of em...
Everything went as he planned..he was enjoyin his life with no thoughts of chasing...nor fallin into a hole..

But one fine day...he started to become quite close to this sec 3 gerl...
T0k abt each other and shared problems n stuff..
He thought it would be 0kay..just be gd frends..not more than dat...

Unfortunately...he started to fall fer this gerl fer some particular reason dat he doesnt know as well..
But his mind kept rejecting the feelings he had fer this gerl..
Cuz he promised himself to neva fall fer any other gerl..
IN him...there was a battle between the mind and the heart...
The heart wins some and the mind wins some..

In the end..he is stuck..he does not know wad to do...
To go on or to stay as frends?
He doesnt know...so he decides to keep it neutral...
SO even until...he's still in a state of confusion...

Orite..dat was the story of a guy...

One qns i pose to u ppl...."Y r humans created with emotions??"

*Peace*

2005-09-21T15:50:00.000+08:00

Hi guys!

See my new skin? Woohoo..its a new one!
Thx to the one hu made it..
Got tired of black newayz...
Besides..its been t00 long since i've had dat blasted skin..not dat its not nice or anitin..

Hmm..i just sey up a new but ugly tagboard..
IT doesnt matter does it? as long as u can tag!
So juz feel free to tag any shit u want on me or anitin..i dunt mind =)
If u want me to link u ppl...juz put ur address and ill juz link it up in a jeepy!
Hope to get to link more ppl...

2005-09-20T13:00:00.000+08:00

Hello again..
Hu eva is dere...

Rite..basically..i dunt haf much things to write abt the things dat is going on wit me..
I dunt write personal stuff here anywayz? Rememeber..its an online blog..so cant say anitin hurtful or anitin..
SO i start..

Hmm..wad shld i say? Basically...life has been normal..
Hw hw hw...lepak lepak..hw hw hw..study study..
Hmm..a bit of thinkin wad i shld do in my life..
This and that..
Help ppl here and dere...
Helpin ppl? Hmm..nowadaes i assist ppl lots of time..[not my job leh..never get paid]

Hmm...well..i see ppl study study study..but l00k at me...
I dunt study much..haiz...

Orite...write fer u ppl a betta one next time if sumtin nice happens to me sumday..
-X-PEACE OUT-X-

2005-09-13T03:25:00.000+08:00

Hello ppl..
Or mayb just liya there...
Anyways....here i am to write down about all my thoughts abt life...
I can oni remember some...
Here it goes...

Hmm...my ever best thought..
Where wld we be if we neva existed in the ferst place?
Wld it be in another world?
Another system?
Another being?
An animal or a tree?
Or wld we be by the side of god..
But see this? IF we neva existed at all?
Where wld we be?
At the nothingness...
Wad is the nothingness??
Izit black...i cant tell u wad my exact tots r abt this one...
U haf to think fer urself..
Juz think hard!
U'll end up wit blank...just like me..

Next thing...
How did we eva got born?
Did we just come from sperms and eggs dat our parents produce?
I dunt think so..
If god neva wanted the sperms and eggs to function..we will neva be alive..
Yes...scientifically...babies wld come out from the combination of the sperm and the egg..
Ah..u get my point!

Next one...
Y did this whole universe had to exist?
Y cant it just be emptiness..
All free thinkers listen up..
I want u to think...
Wad if all the planets and sun didn't form up..
Wad is there??
I dunno..u think

Basically..dats all wad i can remember...if u can answer me..just t0k to me in msn at mat_giler_49@hotmail.com
Peace PPL!

Im back..after a few months

2005-09-10T17:01:00.000+08:00

Orite..im back now...
Dunno why??
Mayb..i juz wanna put in my tots...

But not 2dae..i haf no time...
So mayb some other time...
And yeah..ill make my blog look betta next time!

CYA!!

2005-02-10T04:28:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl...
*If there is any*
Mayb i shld ask more ppl to link me...

Rite...
So 2dae is chinese new year...
Notin new nor nutin
Accept dat me n me family went joggin ard 7 am...accept fer my lazy father...

Hmm....
I tink i'm in it again...
Dun't think any1 noes wad i'm talkin bout or referin to...
Dats a gd thing...
Dunno wad's my next step...

Ok cya ppl yea?

Tag or sumtin lar! Like plain sial this blog!

I love U

2005-02-07T15:18:00.000+08:00

Love U
Love U
Love U
y? dunno!

I love u all!! see u!

Fuck Ah KAninaBU!

2005-02-06T04:11:00.000+08:00

Babi la motherfuckers!!!
Plan go jam den all cannot go!!!
Fuck ah!
Go rot in dat bloody fuckin hell!!!!!!

Everytime i wan to go jammin surely got obstacle!!!
Fuck ah!
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK
KANINAKANINAKANINAKANINABUUUU!!!
Fuck u UPSIDE DOWN!!!!!!
FUCKFUCKFUCK!!! BABI!!!!!

U dunno how it feels inside man!!
U will neva noe!!!
NO dunt fuckin disturb me fer today!!!!!1
I'll cancel wat i wanna do or say!!!

FUCK U!

me

2005-01-30T13:12:00.000+08:00

Hey guy...
Yar yar...i noe its like Zakaria's wonderful skin...
But hey! its nice...so i just used it...

Neways...im gettin sick n tired of da blardy hws..
And guess wad...i figured it out!
Sec1: get to noe frends betta
Sec2: Haf fun...slack..blabla
Sec3-5: Study Study Study and nothing else...haf fun while u go through this!

Iswan slow! Now onli figure out...
Haha...bt fer anyone else hu havent figured it out....now u noe!

me

2005-01-30T05:15:00.000+08:00

HI

2005-01-26T12:11:00.000+08:00

Hey guys...n gals if there is any...
So how r u?
Hope u just don't hate urself juz like how i hate myself fer some blardy reason..

Man...Iswan is juz like shit... a piece of shit dat is smelly and stupid kinda thing!

Forget dat...

I'm happy fer my frends...
Like Zak and more
Congratz PPl!

Neway..imma get myself me own bag!
Most prob On SaturdaY!
Woot...
Saved enough money to buy one...

I cant expect my parents to buy one for me...
as it will take too long

Dats all i want to say...
Stay safe ppl...

Haiz...

2005-01-21T13:39:00.000+08:00

Hello Ppl...
It's been quite a while...
I've been bz wit all my hw and stuff...

So...
I just wanna say...sumtimes i'm happy sumtimes i'm not...
Well...u noe wad makes me happy....dun't u???
Guess not...

Don't wanna tok so much...
JUz wanna say...dis time...I'M HAPPY
Selamat Hari Rayer Haji To those MusliMS out DERE

kAkAka

yoyoyoyo!

2005-01-09T12:18:00.000+08:00

Hey guys...
So 2dae was the CCA open house...

So durin the performance...
when i pulled out the mat..
i slipped and fell...
HEAD ferst!

And yearh...when i fell the mat made me roll wit it...
I tink i rolled...
I dunt really noe...i was partly unconcious...
The next thing i knew...thaqif was pullin my hand...
and even den i was still partly concious..

I bet if the impact was a bit harder..
I would haf FAINTED i tell ya!

So 2dae planned to go jammin but since we finish late...
we didnt go ah...onli went to hamzah's house...

Ok dats fer 2dae guys...

MAKE SURE U TAG

some stuff..

2005-01-08T13:43:00.000+08:00

Hey guys,

Make sure U tag on me doodly board b4 leavin my blog...
I accept any kind of comments...good or even bad...
For example...u can say i'm fat and im a show-off and stuff like dat...
I dunt mind...i'll juz laugh my head off...

OK,
So...2 dae planned to go jammin...
den at school naqib say he cannot go!
Den afta dat mira aso dun wan go!!
Fuck la!

Den ok la...nemmine la...i juz go wit de rest...
Den wait for her for so long dunt come...den say got the cca thing...
Nemmine aso la...

Bt inside ah! like wan to kill everyone in the whole farkin world!

OK dats all!
A beri-beri brief one...

2005

2005-01-03T03:02:00.000+08:00

Hey Kids,
Im back from me cuzzy's house...
Was Great...

!st day stayin dere,
went jammin wit me cuzzy's band members...
bt he's bassist was unable to come for some particular reason..

The place is BMC (bedok Of coz) and it cost $13 or $10 per hour...$1 per gadget...
IT's worth it i tell ya!!
The equipments are yokay...
The room light is white...so doesn't hurt the eyes..

There's 1 point dat is bad or good...depends on the ppl..
The viewin window for other ppl to see is big...bad for beginner's band and bewy gd for those pro...

So me and me cuz and his drummer played dammit, stay together for tha kids...and many more...
Was Fun...

So afta dat...me cuz's frend blanja us Ice kAChANG!!
WOOT!!
Den went to his's frend house to play PS2...the winning eleven one...

Den went back to me cuz's house...

Den the other days oni SMSed and played SIMS...
Dats all...

Oh yea...school is opening tml!!
God NO!!!
I hate studyin...
But hey..its fer my own gd...

K dun wanna tok no more

NO title

2004-12-28T11:51:00.000+08:00

Hello again my idiotic students...
Today...we shall learn about the stupid world of Chickens...
There are many types of chicken...
CHicken Dodol...CHicken Doodle...Chicken Crispy And many more...
Dats the lesson for today...

Now...Iswan shall talk abt his life 2Dae

Hello guys...we meet again!

So, 2dae i went for NCC and blablabla...

Den went jammin wit zakaria,naqib,rusydi and IsWaN.
Went to the Chong Pang Jammin area wan..
Played some song,
Stay Together for Tha Kids, and others..
The most i enjoyed was when we played the song Zak composed...its cool..
like emo-punk kinda thing...

So yearh...was the first time i really enjoyed jammin...
NO REGRETS i tell ya...room is spacious...got coordination and stuff...so its cool...

Den afta dat..i and naqib went pusing pusing CP..
TAlk COCK

Den went Home!

Peace BabI!!

Stuff for the 2 days which I wanted to post

2004-12-26T02:59:00.000+08:00

Ok guys,
Basically.. i will type abt the 2 daes dat i've been wantin to write abt...

Friday

Some ppl oready noe dat my discman is busted and dat the guitar dat i'm practising on is my uncle's one. So, on dis particular dae, i planned wit me parents dat we will buy for my OWN guitar and discman using my OWN duit RAYE.

So my father, my lil' sis and me went to buy the discman ferst while my mom went shoppin, we went round and round and round the whole area and finally decided to bought this $98 discman wit so many functions...which i guess would have a very bad quality. Even wit dis price..my father bargained for a price till $90...and i brought it home.

Den afta dat we went to buy the $35-39 guitar, when we reached dere...the shop was closed as it was...umm...christmas eve...YAR!

So den we went home and gettin rdy to go to my grandma's house at sembawang...to visit my grandpa hu recently came back from Tan Tock Seng Hospital. Nuttin much to elaborate on dat..

We stayed there till 10:50pm(i tink), and went home. On the way back...we immediately decided to go to ORchard to see the christmas lights.

On the way dere, i listened to my new discman...which den my brand new battery which i slotted in dere got out of energy...and i tell ya...it was not even 2 hours PPL!!! How fast did dat discman drained it's energy?!?

Okay..forget bout dat...Upon reachin orchard...we say the lights. Nuttin grand accept for some teenagers chillin' out dere. Sumtin dat i wld like to do if i had de chc..HarH! They were like runnin here and dere like some mad guys and gals..hahaah

Okay lazy to carry on for this day... Off to da Next day

Saturday

Okay...so dis dae, which was yesterday, me family and I went to Choa Chua Kang Swimmin Complex which has dis particular swirly-wirly thing...which is like a slide...which some of u noe.

So, at first my father, 2nd sis and third sis and MEMEME and of coz' the baby named Ilham, went to the spa...we played bubbles and stuff. Ilham cryed at time when he was cold or when the water got into his mouth and stuff. And yes...i kept splashin water onto my 2nd sis to irritate her! HAHAHAH

So afta dat..we went to the other pools...which I am lazy to type on!

Okay..for da fun part...i went to the deep pool wit my father which i normally wld not dare to do.

So, i raced wit my father and i kept winnin!!! AHAHA...juz b'coz of my stamina or sumtin...dat's wad me father said...though i didnt swim correctly.

So it was a great thing i just accomplished...which might not be great to u guys but sumtin great for MEMEMEME!!

So afta swimmin, i bathed and chged to my dry clothes, and den went to my mom. She bought some "Kueh POW/PAU/POU" wadever the spellin is, and some Milo. I wanted to take the kueh and unluckly.. the fhcked me spilled the milo onto my pants and my mom got angry(i tink). So i went to the toilet to dry it up.

Ok next part of the day, went jemputan, dun wan to elaborate.

Afta dat, we went to CHangi AirPorT, looked at some planes and stuff and went to burger king to eat b4 we went home...

So, my father told me to order some stuff and i made a huge mistake by buyin upsized drinks for all MEALS hahahaah! Den my father got angry... and i said " IF u want sumtin done right, do it urself" and i repeated in a different way "If u want PERFECTION, do it urself" and my mother agreed.

Ok..im done...
Rock on!

Reopening!

2004-12-16T13:16:00.000+08:00

Ok ppl...
I'm Half-ALive!!

So...its been like 1 month and 2 daes when i shut this down...
Don't tink anybody cared..HAHA

I dunno wad made me do this thing...
Well...me tag-baord nor me linkz r there...

Back to doin my work...

Cya

tml is hari raya!

2004-11-14T12:17:00.000+08:00

Hey guys...
tml is gonna be hari raya...
dunno wad to say
but to all MUSLIMS hu is readin this...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

my result

2004-11-10T15:41:00.000+08:00

hello ppl...

Ok ...i was posted to 3/9...
like...WAD DA HELL!!
dunt haf a maths noe...
Aww...damn!!
A maths is like the most important subject in the world!!

Well...now i guess i haf to study damn hard if i wan to further my studies to poly...

OK lah malas to go on ah...im sick....
*cough*
Bye lar

Camp

2004-11-04T01:15:00.000+08:00

Hey guys...
I just got back from camp FEAST yesterday...
Was very-veri-very TIRED!!
So..i got home...and ate and slept...

SO...during the camp...
ON the first day...we had some high rankin guy talkin abt the camp...
Den we went to our activites...
First was ice-breakin ..
Den it was lunch time...
We muslims had to sit at the front and not look at them eat...

Den afta dat...we were led to our bunks...
It was the 4th storey...
Afta dat...we had rock climbin...
So we had to chg to half-uniform....meanin PE shirt and the no.4 pants...and had to bring sport or school shoes
Den we went down...den chged to our sport or school shoes b4 climbing
Den...wore the harness and helmet...
Den suddenly it rained..
So we had to take out our gear and wait till the rain stopped...
Then it stopped..the we got ready again...
Then it RAINED AGAIN....
Den chged of plans..
We went back to our bunks..
Den i cannot remember but i noe we had to go up and down to chg our uniform...
ITS 4TH STOREY..MIND U!!! FASTIN TOO!!!

Well...for the next day....
Was so0o0o0o0...much tirin den yesterday!!!!
My frends and i skipped so much activites as our body was very the "lemah"
We onli went for repellin...
It was so easy man!! hahaha
Den becuz of dat activity...i became EXTREMELY EXHAUSTED...
I really tried not to break fast...

So..afta camp FEAST...me, akbar, aiman, hamzah and andiq syazwan went to the area to drink "TEBU" to break fast!!!
Upon reachin the place...i became even exhausted...and felt guidy...
I still kept tryin not to break fast...
But i had no choice but to break fast as i felt i could not take it anymore...

Oklah...dun wan to write oready...

THX FOR DROPPIN BY AND BYEZ

WoW!

2004-11-02T00:26:00.000+08:00

Wello ppl..
Yesterday night was one heck of a night...
Wunt tell u y but...ill just say...WoW!!!

K...
i had a hard time to get into this com..
Had to reboot...chg setup...over and over till i get it...
U can say it's "try an error"

So...2dae might go jammin if i got mood afta sendin tha option form...

I'm lookin for the "thing" tt happened light night will happen again..haahahah
K..nuttin much to say...
CYA

oOo0..AHH...EEEEE...UUUU

2004-10-30T09:30:00.000+08:00

Ok...forget wad i posted b4...

So...2dae was the makin of the human chain..
we, in the mornin at parade square...were listenin to the teachers tolkin..
Den sing the national anthem and the pledge...

Den went back to class and got back my report book and get the photos...

Like...i dunno wad class ill be next yr...

Itz like i get 178/199 for the whole sec2 lvl..

Will i be able to get A Maths???

Den summore...deres onli like 1 geography class...other 5 all history...

Aiyoh!! den summore i cannot get to tt class...aiyo!

Well...im goin to choose 3/7 den 3/8 den...den...den...den...den...den...den...den...den...den...den..de...den...

I DUNNO

Gonna tink bout it...

Ok..enough of this thing...

Den proceeded to the...parade square...

Den the flag lowerin and put at a pole for us to pass the flag...

While doin tt...the school sang the school song...

Den proceeded to the bus and get to our points...

Den at the bus...we sang...

sumtin abt marvin going back to Thailand...

and also sang the O' he's a jolly gd fellow...to Mr Wong...

Den we were stationed at our points...

Was beri beri boring..waited there...while we walked to our frends to tok and joke ard...

Den basyir brought he's video cam and walked around to tape...

Den at LAST the flag came...

so we went back to our stations and waited...

den hamzah passed me the flag and i passed to basyir...den it went ALL THE WAY to the old site..

DEn at the old site...we had this orienteering ard the whole sch...

Just walk and walk and walk non-stop...

till we get to the parade square at the old site...den dismissed...

We then hugged each other for some reason...

Gonna miss each other?? or for fun??

Den afta the whole thing...we went to hamzah's house...

a few played monopoly..a few played the com and watch movies at tv..

Partly watched "The Grudge" and "White Chicks"

white chicks was damn funny..u shld watch it if u haf not...

Ok penat oready...CYa

2dae was kinda borin

2004-10-27T13:00:00.000+08:00

Hello pantats...
2DaE was beri beri borin...

Yin the mornin we had some assembly...
the ppl all up there membebel some stuff..but did not listened as i was jokin wit me fwends...

Then the sec1 always kena scold...haha..
Sec 1 now got attitude prob ar?? HAHA

Then went back class...then got this councillor thingy where we gif suggestion to the new sch...
I wish they cld chg the timetable to 6day week again...where me CCA cld be held on Saturday..
If on weekdays hor...very tiring noe...
Den summore must bring large large bags to stuff all those shit in it...

Well...durin assembly...there was this thingy...bout deepavali and hari raya puasa happenin on da same day...
So they had some joget joget..dikir...all those stuff lar..

Den they had the fashion show...
HAHAHA...funny funny...those ppl up there...hahahhahahahaAHAHHAHAHAHAhahahahaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAhahahahahahahahahaHAHAHAHAHAHhahahahahHAHAHAH
OKOK enough laughin oready..

then afta de end of da pashion thingy..i tot pinis oready...but then still got sum stuff..
bout the hisap rokok thingy..

Den end of sch...
Den mepek mepek mepek mepek...
Mepek again and again
And again and again and again
ANd again and again and again and again
AND again and again and again and again and again...
OK dats enough!

Den go home..
Tot me, Amin, Hamzah and Syamil went back together but he got held back by her...
So we buat bodoh bout tt Syamil..

Den at bus Hamzah sms sumting to her...u noe her...
She noes...
So i tink i agree wit Hamzah..so try to chg ar gerl...

CYA PEEPS

Very fast One

2004-10-24T08:11:00.001+08:00

Yo mOnYet-MoNyEt TaK tEnTu ArAh!

Oh shit...onli wan to start..aiyoh...
Mom scolding...
ARGHHH!! GRRR!!! SHHH!!! BRRRR!!!! BroOM!!! GREEMMMM

CYA monkeys...

Today is my Happy Day

2004-10-20T12:34:00.000+08:00

Yo People,
today was one heck of a day...

In the morning...i helped my mommy to "lap" the windows
Afta dat i played game while waiting till 1..

den at 1:10... i went to meet those peeps hu wanted to go jammin wit me at the sunplaze bus stop...
i came first and played snake2 at my handphone while waitin for those fweaks...

Den afta a while...
naqib gave me heck of a shock...hahahaha
den rusydi came
Den ain 2/9 came along to teman mira...
den zakaria
den mira
den we all go alan...

Den when we reached alan...i was shocked to see Zahid there...WAkaKA
Den we go in room jam ar..

Play drum lar...ape lar....
Best part of the day was when zorro and i played wipe out together...zahid as drummer..
STIM SEY!!
Played the song 2 times...

The first time i went jammin...felt like so long..
but now...it felt damn short...dunno y...mayb all tha fun..HAHAHA

Den went home...

END OF STORY

My New BlogSkin

2004-10-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

Hello all,
as u can see...i chged my blogskin...nice ar?
hehe...if u dunt think it's nice...dat is ur problem...

The whole thing was created by sum1...just copy it down...haha
So the song aso that person letak...

So i want to thank that person for such a nice blog..

Cya next time folks...

Yennadeh

2004-10-14T10:42:00.000+08:00

YENNADEH!!!! now must rewrite the whole thing again...ARGHHH!!!!!!
Crazy internet...internet tercut off...lan..

OK LET'S GET BACK TO BUSINESS

OK...today was exam...
maths i dunno wat to say...
lit...bleh mati...

I dunno wether i can even get to sec 2 express...
either i go to sec 2 academic or stayback
ARGH... rather go to 2 academic...
STRESS MAN STRESS!!!

So to relieve stress...me and my frends plan to go jammin...which was this afternoon...
I went jammin wit zahid, hamzah sec3, hamzah, zakaria, amin, syamil and aziz...
HE sang the NACHOS...come and get ur NACHOS...its betta den ur oreas...

At the jammin room...was so crammed wit all those ppl...
not onli dat...it was so red...it burns me EYES...
I played the drum and elec guitar and bass guitar..
best was drum...fun sey!!
Lazy to go on..haha

AH YES!!! my band amacam?? drummer hu??? bassist hu?? vocalist hu?? HU HU???
YENNADEH...HAHAH

Cya next time...

Lick my ass "nyonya giler"!!!

2004-10-02T08:14:00.000+08:00

Hey again...
Today was english exam..
Was quite ok...

Afta sch went merayap under blok...
walk here walk there...
then went to Friday prayers...

Then naqib want jalan-jalan..
so we jalan-jalan lar...
at Causeway Point...

Walk-walk den amin wan go toilet...
den me, ashraf, amin go toilet ar...

Den came out toilet...
saw shakir...tok tok...
den i tell them to just go find basyir and naqib...
but they didnt move...

Den when we did started to move...
this auntie stop us and asked which one of us spit at her blardy shirt...
Non of us admit as we r damn sure we did not spit!!

Den she brought us to the security guard...
den we went to the security's guard room...
Den the guards asked us whether we spit at that auntie or not..
We kept sayin no!!

I even dared to swear..
Note dat i do not dare to swear if i was in the wrong!!!!
That auntie still dunt believe...
Then the guard said sumtin like," U betta admit and ya can fuck off from here" or sumtin...

I sweared and sweared...
Then they threatened us by...
if we dunt admit..they gonna contact the school discipline master or sumtin...

WAH!!! SO SCARED!!!
heh...we not in the wrong scared for wad???

fuck dat stupid auntie lar.............

today and again today..

2004-10-01T10:37:00.000+08:00

Yo ppl,
Ok...exam is tml onwards....
1 thing i wan to say......
STUDY HARD for ur exam and gd luck
and for all those SLACKERS out there...
start STUDYIN or u will fail!! and dat's one thing u dunt want to happen rite???

HEHE...I care for all of u dont't I?? 1 gd quality of ISWAN...WAHAHA

{GD LUCK FOR EXAM LAR!!!}

For the day...

2004-09-28T10:48:00.000+08:00

Ok...hi again,
I still can't see my tagboard...
Someone help me do my template thingy to get the tagboard appear.
NAQIB!!!! Help me out!!!

So for the day...
Went school...
Tried to study science but got distracted with music..HAR HAR...Bad Bad me..lolz
Listen song...shook head up and down vigorously(dunno how to spell)...lol
Bell...stop listening...went to sit down my place...
Announcement...yada yada...sing anthem yada yada...go back class..

YAda yaDA....
had test for science..
was quite ok...
yada yada...

Den durin art lesson...
didnt listen to wat Goh said..was thinkin of sumtin else...
Den he gave us some free time...20 mins..
I did my incomplete malay hw...
Den sum smart asses made noise and Goh didnt let us continue doin hw...
BUT...wad do i care??
I just continued wit my hw...bad bad me...neva listen teacher..where'd i get these bad influence from?!?!
Then hw pinish!!

Den durin reccess went in front of NCC room and shook my head to tha beat of the music from my discman...
Listened to burn!!!
Extremely nice song by DEEP PURPLE
The guitar like..like...cannot explain...listen the song den u noe!!

Den Durin malay lesson...
was tuckin in shirt...
then my zip got busted!!!
Lucky not many noe!!! harhar!!
Yada yada yada
Den sch end!!!

Den we had some geography extra lesson...
went to that lesson...was dam bored...
so marvin tok tok tok bout some god thingy...wad wad...sign of the devil??
Yar yar...so was not payin attention lar...
U noe...Lee's lesson is so borin...
evewytime his lesson...20 mins felt like 1 hour!!!

Yada yada...
den walk walk at causeway...
den go home....
den listen to burn again...
den den den den den den...
end of story....
Lolz...mepek ar!!!
diam ar giler...
woi diam ar giler...
eh eh dieni...org ckp dgn si dietu...prasan pulak..
dah diam ar...aku tgh ckp dgn si dietu

Dah Dah Dah mepek...

So long gilerZ!!

Today lar

2004-09-27T10:20:00.000+08:00

Yo peeps,
Today i woke up to check whether i cld see my tagboard..
Guess Wad??
I still can't see it!!!
Naqib said ppl cld oready tag at my taggy boardy...
Maybe it's just this blardy com...

So, today went to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve to do hiking thingy wit me religious school peeps
Amin was with the same religious school wit me, as well as his sister and sum other peeps hu i dun't noe
Took bus...yada yada yada...

So, at the bukit timah hill thingy...
I saw monkey...
Even saw those hu licked each others BUTT!!
Did some stretching...yar yar!

Then we walked towards the peak.
The path was quite steep...
yada yada...
Then half way there or so..
I helped carry amin's sling bag..
How kind of me eh??
Lolz
Yada yada

Then i reached at peak...
was THIRD...hahah
YADA YADA...
lazy to go on ar!!

BYEBYE

Yay!

2004-09-26T10:25:00.000+08:00

Ok! Blog is complete.
Did u think i did it myself?
Of coz NOT dumbnutz!
Naqib helped me a lot
So twank you!!
Dats All i want to say.